when you lose something you can't replace

In the process of writing my last post, I lost the one about quitter's remorse. I needed that experience documented. Since moving to New York, I often feel I am writing for an audience rather than for myself. But I wrote about quitting my job and wondering if I made the right decision as a way to deal with the stress of it all. When I began to doubt my decision, I could just reread what I had written and remember all the reasons I needed to quit. But now I can't. It's gone. Does anyone know if I can recover that post?